What is it with today? not feeling all that with it. damn hormones!
i have been keeping track of how i feel through out the month for some time now. even though I'm only 41 i really think I'm starting on the path of pre-menopause. it can last a few years to 10 years. and menopause isn't actually until you haven't had a period for a whole year. but the ups and downs of hormones can last years. with no affect to your period. mine has been changing , always regular, but going from a normal 5 days to now just one day, barely. i noticed these changes a few years ago. after my daughter was born nov 04. my obgyn finally convinced me to try some medical help after about a year or so of talking to me about it. when i hurt my son by losing my temper and pulling him out from under the kitchen table and as i did that he hit his head on the leg of the table. bruising his hear cartilage. i felt horrible! cried so bad for hurting him. called my husband, he had to come home from work to calm me down. i knew that day that i needed to talk to someone about these mood swings because i knew they were not me and that something was changing. i had never had pms. i wouldn't even be able to notice when my period was going to start. until i had kids..lol
then my body changed! i so notice exactly where i am with in the month cycle. i know when I'm feeling depressed, or have very bad BO for a few days,, or severe pms. i know exactly where my cycle is.
at first the dr gave me Lexipro for anxiety that i have probably always dealt with my whole life and never knew how to categorize it. that helped alot!
but still not with the severe pms. tried Yasmin,, oh gosh!!! not good. that stuff was like being on pms the whole two months i took it
now the dr is starting me on another birth control pill. one with less estrogen. there are like 90 birth control pills out there,, and i hate the idea of having to do the trial and error aspect of trying to find what will work.
i dread it. but i also know that there really is no other way.
I'm in the depressed and BO stage right now..lol so i know my period should start this coming week. in the mood of just wanting to be left alone. so my husband took the kids to the indoor pool,, as i sit here,, with the march madness games playing in the background. watching the doves on the tree branch out back that the bird feeder is hanging from. there's no more food in it right now.. i suppose i should put some in there..
its 71 degrees supposedly.. lol maybe i should go out there and enjoy the day a bit....................