Today,, we went and picked out glasses for my son. he turned 5 in january.
we found out yesterday that he indeed need glasses. one eye is 20\40 and the other 20\100. luckily it was during his kindergarten physical this week that they did an eye test and he didn't do so well. luckily we have insurance, and dr's and school systems who make sure every child is required to get eyes and hearing tested before starting school. i know i'm glad we found out now and he won't have to go through years of not being able to learn as well as he could in school,,he will be able to see now.
BUT,,, all tha said,, when the dr first said he can't see the first line out of one eye.. i was sad. when the eye dr said, yes, he needs glasses,.. i was nauseous and had to catch my breath. i was sad. he was excited.. as was most people when i told them. with the 'that's great it was found now, he'll be able to see now'.. i'm usually the one that see a silver lining from anything!! but for some reason this,, the unknown to me,, was different.
i have no reference point to use..
i don't want my feelings to color his view of his glasses. i WANT him to be excited and happy.
i'm working on my mind to get past the sad feelings i'm feeling for him.
i say in my head, ' i don't want him to have to go through this'.. {sigh},, really?? really?? is it all that bad?? everything we've gone through through to have him, everything we have gone through to have our daughter.
she could have had so many things wrong. we thought she would have hearing loss and we were fine with that.. how is this different? why was i ok with the hearing loss but glasses.. geeshh.. lol
ok,,, you can do this.